Friday, August 10, 2007

Latin American Conference 2007 (Part 3)

One thing I realy repent is that I didn't serve this conference wholeheartedly. I mean, I moved a lot. I was here and there. Yes, I asked many people from the staff if there was anything I could help. I baberly slept prepearing the conference. But all the hard work and not sleepings are nothing when the heart and mind are not God-centered.

For this conference I was praying that from my felloship could go 30 sheeps. I thought that it was an impossible mission, but still I wanted to have this challenge. Challenge is the name of my fellowship, so we are the challengers... hahahaha... Any ways, after few weeks, the prayer topic went down to 20, then 15, and at the end 10. On an auction the prices go up, never down. But my preyer topic, instead of being like an auction, it was like a bargain. But still, I didn't care. I wanted to reach the goal, even if it was a lower one that in the begining.

But I have some questions to myself. Was I doing it because I wanted to reach the goal or was I doing it to the glory of God? I love God, that's for sure. But, did I pray with God's heart of just to be comfortable with my self? Was I doing a competition with other fellowships to see who can take more sheeps to the conference? I repent because I didn't have a shepherds heart to feed the sheeps of God and to pray wholeheartedly for my fellowship.

I liked this conference a lot. I got to know all the struggles the missionaries are going through in ther mission fields. So I have to pray more for them, and thank God that in Guadalajara are being established great servants of God. I was great to hear the testimonies of the missionaries and shepherds from other countries, because I was able to confirm that at the end God gives glory to his servants, and in that way, God himself is glorified.

Struggles are needed to grow. Like the craftsman hit the stone with his chisel, God let his servants to be in great problems. But at the end, the craftsman makes a really beautiful piece of art. God also make great servants through the persecution and hardships. Living with my parents in my country (well, I'm Korean, but I've been enough time in Mexico to consider it as my country), I have a very nice, easy and comfortable life. Some struggles, a little bit of hardships, but nothing compared with the ones the missionaries are living. Not even compared with the pain my Lord Jesus suffered because of me.

Through the passage of Luke 23:34, "Jesus said, "Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing."" I remembered the love of God for this vile sinner like me. Romans 5:6-8, says, "You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Jesus died, but he didn't just died, but he prayed to God to forgive us. He wanted me to be forgieven even when I crucify him. My Lord Jesus Christ came to this world to give his life so I could have life.

Now, it's payback time. I thank God that he established me as shepherd of his flock. I thank God that he renewed my spirit to serve Guadalajara mission field. I thank God because he let me participate in this Latin Amercian Summer Bible Conferences, and poured on me his love to love others and serve the gospel.

Preparing this study, I was very amazed. This is what I found: John 3:16 - "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." and 1 John 3:16 - "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers." Same chapter, same verse, same author. The only difference is that one is a Gospel and the other is a letter. But the first reference is how God showed his love for men through the death of our Lord Jesus. The second reference is how we should love others because of the death of our Lord Jesus. Interesting, huh... Well, it is to me.

Please pray for me to be a shepherd with my Lord Jesus's shepherd heart. Please pray that everything I do, I do it for God. Pray that I love my God's flock and his mission before anything else. And then I may work hard to serve the ministry.

To work hard and serve others without loving God, his flock and his mission, is completely worthless. It's just getting tired for free, for nothing. It's just a waste of time and energy.

I pray that each day I may wake up and remember my Lord Jesus at the cross praying for me: 'Father, forgive him, for he doesn't know what he is doing.' And I may repent of my sins, and serve the ministry in Guadalajara and the World Mission.



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